Nightmares

Crawling in my sleep unable to weep, 

Thrashing to and fro haunting nightmares as they flow;

Dreams of pain locked inside bursting free and open wide, 

Soundless cries within the night fighting back with all my might;

Anxieties float free in sleep bringing to life things buried deep, 

Creeping in my mind at night things I hide from myself in light;

Morning creeps within my room darkness laughs as it looms, 

Cradled in its arms so firm I begin to battle hard and squirm; 

Falling deep inside my dreams I run so hard and all but scream,

Blaring light surrounds the walls bringing wakeful morning calls. 

There I sit up in my bed heart is pounding filled with dread, 

My mind is blank and all I know is something happened long ago. 

Inside of me

Drifting off into space, emptiness envelops me

My life feels like a waste, Darkness surrounding me

Forget this pain, forget who I am

Forget I am plain, forget I am damned

Staring into the night’s sky I see the stars are laughing at me

Laughing at my shame, laughing at my pain

Laughing at a life I can’t flee.

Despair creeps through my veins

As I try to liberate it from its cage

Flowing free a red sea of rage

Mirrors harass me as pictures fall; images of me come off the wall

I can see it where ever I go, cause wherever I am I still know

There is the monstrous side of me, and I hate that monster I can be.

Parody

Falling Light

Christmas Boxes

I made these for Christmas gifts this year. I put giftcards in the middle or SD cards. Something small. They popped up as the box falls away after you open it up.

One Missed Pill

Whisper’s in my head all day, telling me how they see my face; Pounding voices in my head say what a worthless life I tread.

Little pills I take at night silence berating thoughts of mine; but if I miss just one small dose, I feel I’m hated by those so close.

Heart is pounding feeling dread, why do they hate me words not said; looks of worry read so wrong, suffering painful grief that does not belong.

Why do I stay when I cause so much pain, is what it feels like when I’m not sane; I should leave them in peace, just let my life force cease.

All because of one missed pill, my heart is pounding to its will; breathing slowly to calm my fears, holding back a host of tears.

Can you now empathize how I feel? When I miss just one white pill; let me be and sanity will come, just not to alone or there will be none.

Crystal Balls of dancing light, tables dressed like silver night;
Guests appear within the walls, dancing across the ballroom floor.

Music sings within my ears, raindrops falling like glistening tears;
Glancing up to see the rain, she enters now and makes me sane.

Dripping curls of chocolate hair, flawless skins soft and fair;
Dress made from Angelic lace, could not take from her face.

Her footsteps glide across the floor, grace and beauty so much more;
Stopping close to my side, deep brown eyes of joyful life.

Bells ring within my ears, when she whispers close and near;
Hello my love Sorry I’m late, for the anniversary of our first date.